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SPF1000
SPF1000 is pretty neat. I've been thinking more clearly lately, & I've come to a realization. MS & I aren't good for each other right now(that's not the revalation. That much I already knew). I need to not be with him (at least for now, quite possibly forever). His being with someone else is making that easier. If he's caught up in someone else, he won't be dwelling on the lack of Us, I won't be distracted or weakened by his angst, & we won't be backsliding into comfortable but destructive old habits. So I'm actually kinda glad he's got another girlfriend already (although I'm still bitter about how poorly he handled the transition). MS also told me last night that he had issues, too, I just wasn't as privy to them as he is to mine. Yeah, like that's a surprise. Intellectually, I already knew that. The emotional part of me who likes to think I'm a reasonably well-adjusted adult feels kindof bad for him. The injured, whiny part of me is quite pleased. MS hugging me last night didn't make me want to cry. I'm getting another flicker from that light at the end of the tunnel. I think if I could just forgive him for fucking things up & forgive myself for letting him (or vice versa), I'd be fine. Still working on that, but I'm convinced I'll get there, eventually.
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Just in case you thought I wasn't crazy, anymore... - Thursday, Jan. 30, 2003 Hiya! ::waves:: - Saturday, Nov. 16, 2002 New & improved home trephination kit... now with 50% more sequins! - Saturday, Jul. 27, 2002 slack, whine, & snot. A recipe for bitchiness. - Thursday, Jul. 11, 2002 Do you believe in time travel? - Saturday, Jul. 06, 2002
 the moon sees me...
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